I am an open book. I like to share stories and provide experiences with the hope of helping someone out. I've said/written it before...no one should go it alone.
The physical aspect of diabetes is one, however, that I feel is rather private. Let's just say the Heitertmeister will not be wearing a bikini to the neighborhood pool this summer. Years of insulin shots and infusion set changes have dotted my abdomen like the night sky. Sure, it sounds rather poetic, but it is simply lots of flesh with lots of needle marks. So, I cover the dots. Is this the worst thing that can happen to a person with diabetes? Absolutely not. But, on not-so-positive/heavy-heart days, the dots serve as a reminder of the routine I will face for the rest of my life. Change infusion set every 3-4 days. Repeat. Repeat. Annnd repeat. Luckily, if I manage to do this routine the correct way, the rest of my life will be a long, long time.
Insulin pumps offer flexibility in many ways, including where to place the infusion set (arm, abdomen, heiners). My personal choice of abdomen (night sky) has created my starry surface (constellation), but I am afraid to place infusion sets in different locations. I tried to put an infusion set in my leg once. ONCE. That was all it took to realize the long needle insertion should occur somewhere else. Not only do I take into consideration the freaked out/pain factor, but also the extremely active job as a Physical Education teacher. I need to have complete control of where things are attached. You see, I've had my infusion set involuntarily taken out once. ONCE. That was all it took to realize the insertion set and insulin pump should be placed where no one or nothing can unknowingly remove it.
Will the tiny needle dot stars that form constellations all over my night sky belly kill me? Not a chance. BUT they will never be on display or be a part of my daily conversations.